This blog contains posts about loves in every day life and my experiences as a new mother. I'm hoping to open this up to anyone who is interested in many different discussions from seeking information that might help them to heavy debates. You never know when something someone else says may help you in your present or future situations!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
My Angel
From the age of 7 I knew I wanted to be a mommy. I received a cabbage patch doll for Christmas and I understood the whole adoption thing with the certificate. I loved her, took care of her and brushed and styled her hair every day! It prepared me for what I thought would be how being a mommy should be. Well I was grown up and married and wanted a baby so bad and the doctor told me I was infertile. I almost died... literally. If it hadn't been for my best friend pulling me out of it, I would have been. She helped me to remain alive and told me that there are still a lot of things I could do. I was still heart broken but I proceeded to go to the infertility specialist and did cycle upon cycle of chlomid and finally conceived. I was so excited that I didn't know what to do and couldn't sleep. I had a rough pregnancy and tried not to over do it so I wouldn't do anything to jeopardize my pregnancy. It was a rough 36 weeks. My angel was born a month early and that 1st week of her life I thought I was going to die again... Her bilirubin levels kept rising, they had to keep her under a uv lamp so that she could expel the bilirubins and start to thrive. I suffered some postpartum depression I think from the stress of everything. Our whole lives changed and I didn't think anything would. I didn't think we would make it through and we did. Eight months later and stress upon stress I would not have changed anything about it. She is my beautiful angel sent from heaven above and she saved my life.
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